Afghan girl locked in toilet for 5 months

"Our leaders tell you we are helping womens rights in Afghanistan; the
truth is that for the most part we simply look the other way and justify
this by saying, "we have to respect their culture." Out of all the
billions of dollars going into this nation there is no justice being
demanded and fought for when it comes to the liberty of women in
Afghanistan."

Consul Nicholas Moore


"The case highlights how women continue to suffer in Afghanistan despite
the billions of dollars of international aid which has poured into the
country during the decade-long war."

The Afghan Independent Human Rights Commission logged 1,026 cases of
violence against women in the second quarter of 2011 compared with 2,700
cases for the whole of 2010.

And according to figures in an Oxfam report in October, 87 percent of
Afghan women report having experienced physical, sexual or psychological
violence or forced marriage.


http://news.yahoo.com/afghan-girl-locked-toilet-5-months-officials-16501
6469.html

U.S. Tries to Play Nice with Taliban by Not Calling Its Leader a Top Terrorist

..Wow, how far we've come from October 2001. Back then the U.S. was
bombing the Taliban out of power for supporting terrorism, while today
we've pulled its top leader from our terrorist list. The FBI today has
taken Mullah Muhammad Omar, head of the Taliban in Afghanistan, off of
its 'Most Wanted Terrorists" list, reports The Express Tribune. It's
unclear whether the U.S. no longer thinks Omar is a terrorist or if he's
just not wanted anymore. In any case, the Obama administration is trying
ploy after ploy to get the Taliban to negotiate a peace in Afghanistan
and put that war to bed like the one in Iraq. Already thrown on the
table: The 20 something Gitmo prisoners part of the Taliban and control
of southern Afghanistan, according to The Tribune. But so far the
Taliban doesn't want much to do with us after, you know, declaring war
on them a decade ago and all.

http://news.yahoo.com/u-tries-play-nice-taliban-not-calling-leader-161354155.html

The Wealthy Congress Have Lost Touch With The People

"There is the problem, and the evidence is there; You have to be rich to run for congress. There are many who understand what the nation needs; those who can relate with the people and "truly" be their voice, but these people will never have a chance because they cannot afford to run for congress... The rich are this way because many of them have always looked out for themselves first and foremost, with full focus on their personal success. To be a politician to them is just another notch on their belt to raise their reputation and their status. They don't put the people first; their nation first, because if they did then they would be able to actually do something for the people. In recent years it has been proven again and again that they don't have our best interest in mind. I repeat need new leaders who truly represent the people and can relate with them... There are some who would serve with only the bare minimum (if need be) to support their families, while focusing the rest of their acquired wealth on fixing the nation."

Consul Nicholas Moore


"The average successful House race costs $1.4 million to stage (the
average Senate campaign is almost $10 million), and candidates are
allowed - and often need - to donate as much as they want to their own
effort. The costs of advertising and travel make it increasingly
difficult for anyone who doesn't already have money to get their name
out there. There have also been concerns raised recently about the
ability of politicians to profit from their position, both through
contacts made and the ability to trade stock based on privileged
information."

Related: The Net Worth of Congress Rose 23.6% Since 2008
(http://www.theatlanticwire.com/national/2011/11/net-worth-congress-rose
-236-2008/44418/)

"Even putting aside the questions of influence and corruption, the
biggest concern is that those who elected to Congress are more out of
touch with the world of their constituents than ever before. How can
they be expected to look out for the interest of citizens when the
biggest issues facing them - unemployment, health care, wages - are
unknown to most of those who are supposed to be looking out for them? Or
worse when addressing those issues directly contradicts their own
interest, as when millionaires are asked to vote on a "millionaire's
tax"? The biggest political movement of the last year, Occupy Wall
Street, has been devoted almost exclusively to addressing the gap
between rich and poor, but it's hard to see how any change becomes
possible when that gap is greatest among those in a position to do
something about it..."

By Dashiell Bennett | The Atlantic Wire

The Wealth Gap Between Congress and Voters Is Growing

http://news.yahoo.com/wealth-gap-between-congress-voters-growing-1202571
97.html

"Homeless Children In America"

"What difference did our President truly make in America for the
minorities, and for our nation as a whole? He talks a good talk, that is
all."

"Even in Afghanistan we are not helping the women and children despite
what the news may say. Just look at the sense of justice we allow when
an Afghan woman who was placed in prison for years because she was raped
is forced to marry the relative who raped her to gain freedom. And our
leaders just say, "okay." Meanwhile in our own nation our women and
children need help, and our leaders are not providing it!"

Consul Nicholas Moore

"How dare you!" the girl said abruptly as she nudged a toy car across a
conference room table at the Chapman Partnership shelter in Miami's
tough and predominantly black Overtown neighborhood."

"There was no telling what Aeisha was thinking as her 32-year-old
mother, Nairkahe Touray, spoke of how she burned through her savings and
wound up living in a car with five of her eight children earlier this
year."

"But how dare you indeed? How does anyone explain to kids like Aeisha
and countless others how they wound up homeless in the world's richest
nation?"

"These are kids who don't have any opportunities," she said. "If you
look at some of the educational variables, they're doing really poorly.
And they're kids who can do OK. They just don't have appropriate
support.


Please read the article at the following link-
http://news.yahoo.com/another-face-u-recession-homeless-children-190141560.html

First True Alien World, Perhaps First Sign Of Intelligent Life In The Universe

"It amazes me how humanity can be so smart yet so stupid at the same
time. This reminds me of Leo Szilard the inventor of the atom bomb which
preceded the nuclear weapons we have today. He believed if his knowledge
was shared with America there would be world peace because no one would
want to commit genocide when the "good guys" have a weapon that could
wipe out a nation... Szilard was a genius, so think about that...
Humanity will be defined by the other alien races as "being addicted to
self destruction and being insanely in denial of this obvious truth." In
fact I wonder if humanity was made with the sole purpose of destroying
this once paradise like world and then once the mission was put into
motion you were programmed to destroy yourselves as well... Perhaps
someone is laughing at the absurdity of mankind; we should be in awe
over how blind humanity can be as a whole. To quote Tommy Lee Jones from
Men In Black, "A person can be smart, but people are stupid!"

Consul Nicholas Moore

(An especially frustrating day, and after having a couple too many
drinks.)

Please read the article in the following link-

http://news.yahoo.com/first-true-alien-earth-may-found-2012-181113143.html

Humanity Can Be So Blind

More than 100 emergency workers searched for Aliahna around the mobile
home park Saturday, though no active search was done Sunday. Tinkel said
the same size search could not be sustained because of the Christmas
holiday." (God forbid people miss Christmas to continue looking for a
little girl lost in a mobile home park full of sex offenders...)

"FBI agents earlier Monday descended on the rundown mobile home park in
Fort Wayne where Aliahna lived and was last seen. It's a "known haven
for registered sex offenders"... (Nice place to bring up a little girl,
huh? Fucking idiots!!)... though Plumadore is not on Indiana's
registered sex offenders list. He has a criminal record in Florida and
North Carolina that includes convictions for trespassing and assault."
(Nice family friend to have.)

According to a state website, 15 registered sex offenders live in the
park that numbers about two dozen homes, and Watkins said that makes
people cautious and reserved. (And stupid to be living there with
children in the first place.)

"I'm numb, I'm totally numb," she said when told about the girl's death.
"I don't know what to think." (I know what to think; you're an
incompetent idiot!!)

Humanity:

A species "addicted to self-destruction" and being insanely in denial of
this obvious truth; defines their selves by how they wish they could be
while being blind over how selfish they actually are; The most
delusional species known in the universe and most amazingly
counterproductive; by all appearances their sole purpose is to
eventually destroy everything and take most everything for granted while
justifying their means with an absurd sense of logic; ironically they
believe they are the center of the universe and are some kind of
crowning achievement. They say ironic things like, "I believe everybody
is inherently good", while most of them don't even know what inherent
means. They are the only creatures who will create something to make
their lives more difficult and hasten their demise; (money, atom bomb,
nuclear weapons, unnatural drugs, etc). Even as their world collapses
they continue trying to keep themselves distracted while choosing to be
blind to the obvious.


Please read the following link:
http://news.yahoo.com/missing-ind-girl-found-dead-babysitter-charged-042
854965.html

Colbert Exposing More Greed and Hypocrisy

"The S.C. Republican Party no longer needed my $400,000, but being
Southern gentlemen, they graciously offered to still want it. They would
sell me the naming rights, if instead of giving my cash to the counties,
I handed it directly to the party," Colbert writes. "I asked in return
that they petition the court to get the referendum back on the ballot.
They said no. I offered less money, $200,000, since I was getting only
half of our original agreement. They said no."

Now...the result from this public humiliation to the GOP Primary Committee:


http://news.yahoo.com/stephen-colbert-sponsor-south-carolinas-gop-primary-212925861.html

"America Now Negotiates With Terrorists"

In Americas other major wars where "negotiated settlements" were made;
these were not wars against outright terrorists... It's sad that we've
reached a point where our political leaders "negotiate with terrorists."


How we handled this war was not right, for we did not prepare properly
and we did not even bother to understand the enemies mindset, or their
ideology before we went into Afghanistan. And how we end this war,
through negotiations with the Taliban, will only cause more problems for
our future... The political leaders are thinking of making things look
"good" for the present, without considering the mess left for the future
leaders to deal with, and our children to deal with.

Consul Nicholas Moore

http://ezinearticles.com/?Origin-of-Our-Threat-And-Danger-of-Their-Ideology&id=6604168


"Obama will likely face criticism, including from Republican
presidential candidates, for dealing with an insurgent group that has
killed U.S. soldiers and advocates a strict Islamic form of government."

"But U.S. officials say that the Afghan war, like others before it, will
ultimately end in a negotiated settlement."

We have fallen far, and we're still falling...

http://news.yahoo.com/exclusive-secret-u-taliban-talks-reach-turning-point-013710323.html

Undercover Allies?

The Chinese central bank said it agreed Friday with its Pakistani
counterpart to swap 10 billion yuan ($1.6 billion) for 140 billion
Pakistani rupees. It said the money would promote investment and trade
but gave no details of how it would be used.


http://news.yahoo.com/china-announces-currency-swap-pakistan-040458122.h
tml

Better Anonymous Than A more Hostel Enemy

"Many warnings keep popping up when it comes to how severe our
vulnerability to cyber attack is and we are not putting forth enough
effort to prevent a future (far more damaging attack). Our leaders are
spending money and time (our money) on more unnecessary avenues instead
of focusing on what they should be... Our ship is has many leaks, and to
begin repairing all of the damage we must go to the source, and start on
the foundation and work our way up."

Consul Nicholas Moore

"Anonymous said the client list it posted was a small slice of the 200
gigabytes worth of plunder it stole from Stratfor and promised more
leaks. It said it "was able to get the credit details in part because
Stratfor didn't bother encrypting them -- an easy-to-avoid blunder
which, if true, would be a major embarrassment for any security-related
company."


"The group has previously claimed responsibility for attacks on
companies such as Visa, MasterCard and PayPal, as well as others in the
music industry and the Church of Scientology."


http://www.foxnews.com/us/2011/12/25/hackers-target-us-security-think-ta
nk/?test=latestnews

Update: http://news.yahoo.com/york-times-says-targeted-china-hackers-wen-report-040732303--finance.html 

 
"For the last four months, Chinese hackers have persistently attacked The New York Times, infiltrating its computer systems and getting passwords for its reporters and other employees," The Times said on Thursday.

"Security experts hired by The Times to detect and block the computer attacks gathered digital evidence that Chinese hackers, using methods that some consultants have associated with the Chinese military in the past, breached The Times's network."

"Iran says ready to expand military links with Iraq"

"US President Barack Obama said on December 14 that, while the situation
left behind in Iraq was not perfect, "we are leaving behind a sovereign,
stable, and self-reliant Iraq."

"His administration has warned Iran against trying to interfere in
Iraq."

"The war is not over yet... the big one is only about to begin..."

Consul Nicholas Moore

Please read the article at the following link provided:

http://news.yahoo.com/iran-says-ready-expand-military-links-iraq-2021190
55.html

"More War On The Horizon"

"Because of poor decisions made by our leaders in the last war a worn
out American Military Force may not be ready for the upcoming threat..."

Consul Nicholas Moore

(Please see the article titled "Origin Of Our Threat And The Danger of
Their Ideology-
http://ezinearticles.com/?Origin-of-Our-Threat-And-Danger-of-Their-Ideol
ogy&id=6604168 )

Excellent chance' Israel attacks Iran and US drawn in this year

I think most Americans really want to believe this is behind us and past
us," Thomas said. "And you know, not only is it goin to happen, is it
happening in Iraq, but Iran - I think there is an excellent chance that
this year, this election year, Israel is going to attack Iran and the
United States is going to be drawn back into a really scary, violent
situation..." Evan Thomas said.

http://dailycaller.com/2011/12/24/evan-thomas-excellent-chance-israel-attacks-iran-and-us-drawn-in-this-year-video/#ooid=ZpNmo2MzppkmyHuVnzHjlNXjcbnQC7oT


"Let's hope - Evan is rarely wrong - [that Evan] is wrong. But if in
fact, we are about to embark upon that, let's do it this time the right
way, by a full and complete debate and a declaration of war, and a
statement going in about what our objective is and what we are willing
to do as a people, as a nation, a military, to achieve those ends, and
when it will be over and how we will get out," Shields said. "And that
is what haunts us from all of these incursions and all of these
expeditions."

Joe Lieberman:"I don't think Congress has ever been as bad as it is now."

..Independent Senator Joseph Lieberman chairs the Senate Homeland
Security and Governmental Affairs Committee. Elected to the Senate in
1988, he ran as an independent in 2006 after losing Connecticut's
Democratic primary.


Why is public approval of Congress so low? In Sen. Joe Lieberman's
opinion, it's because Congress has never been so dysfunctional.

"Because I don't think Congress has ever been as bad as it is today.
Here is a time of very serious, painful economic hardship ... and a debt
that is threatening our future, national debt, and "WE REALLY HAVEN'T
DONE ANYTHING ABOUT IT."

Whether members of Congress are using non-public information for
personal financial gain:

"I don't have any evidence that there is insider trading by members of
Congress.... A lot of people around the country ... think there is....
It is very important that Congress make clear with legislative action
that members of Congress ... are covered by insider-trading laws."

President Obama's response to Iran's capture of an American spy drone:

"I wish that we had found a way to at least go in and destroy it.... It
would have been very difficult to rescue it.... I say that with humility
because I wasn't in the [White House] Situation Room...."

US policy toward Iran:

"I don't think we have done enough to support regime change. It needs to
be done artfully because it is not one of those cases where we want to
go in and start endorsing opposition" candidates.

Former Speaker Newt Gingrich saying the Palestinians are an "invented"
people:

"To me, the important fact is, the Palestinians are a people today and
any resolution of the conflict between Israel and the Palestinians has
to be between two peoples, two nations."

Calls for the Transportation Security Administration to create passenger
advocates at airports to deal with complaints about searches:

"It is worth thinking about, but I am not jumping to endorse it.... I am
an admirer of TSA."

http://ca.news.yahoo.com/joe-lieberman-dont-think-congress-ever-bad-today-050004685.html

"Is Our Nation Ran By Children"

"The fight over the payroll tax cut accomplished almost nothing in terms
of real world policy changes, but has provided the president with a huge
political victory heading into 2012. Not only did Speaker of the House
John Boehner take a stand on an issue that almost no one was against
(lower taxes), he lost the fight in a manner suggesting he can't control
his own party members..."

"...Who Boehner should have been standing up to was his own party
members, particularly the freshman Tea Partiers who complained the
loudest about the Senate deal. He's smart to enough to know the issue
was a loser politically, but he gave into the anger of his party members
whose main objection - a two-month extension vs. a one-year - was a
rather trivial matter that in the long run would make no difference."

"In short, the president had never been in a better position politically
and it was never clear what the Republicans thought they would be
gaining by forcing his hand...." They weren't thinking; not about the
people and their nation!

http://news.yahoo.com/why-republicans-blinked-120021317.html


 

"Time To Exercise Our Rights!"

"The right of revolution (or right of rebellion) is the right or duty,
variously stated throughout history, of the people of a nation to
overthrow a government that acts against their common interests."

George Washington

"We simply want the people going back to the foundation our nation was
built upon, and to follow the vision our founding fathers' originally
left for us. To solve any severe problem we must start at the
foundation. Our politicians keep going for ways of easing the symptoms
for a short time, to shut the people up for a short time. They know the
problem is still growing though and needs to be resolved. We do not wish
for our Constitution to be eliminated, contrarily we want to save it;
and save our nation. We need a new Government one truly "for the people
and by the people," a Government that follows the Constitutional
Amendments; a true Republic like our founding fathers' wanted. Is this
too much to ask for? Is this how we define rebellion? ... Well then so
be it!"

Consul Nicholas Moore


"The way I see it is that the Republicans want Obama to be a one-term
president," said James Edwards, an Amtrak conductor from Hamden, Conn.,
who was in Boston on Wednesday. "They are taking their patriotism and
throwing it away, and they are hurting the middle class. They want to
make sure that America is hurting while this president is sitting so
they won't vote for him in 2012."

Anaiah Spencer, a property manager from Los Angeles, said the deadlock
is damaging people's faith in lawmakers.

http://news.yahoo.com/americans-frustrated-congressional-stalemates

Another Attack From Our Allies; Chinese Hack Into US Chamber of Commerce, Authorities Say...

They enjoy making us look stupid...

"The hackers had access to everything in Chamber computers, including,
potentially, the entire U.S. trade policy playbook.

"The Chinese have attacked every major U.S. company, every government
agency, and NGO's. Their attacking the Chamber of Commerce is part of a
pattern of their attacking everything in the US. If you're working on
U.S.-China relations with an NGO, government agency, you can be sure the
Chinese are reading your emails and on your computer," Richard Clarke,
former White House counter-terrorism adviser, told ABC News."


http://news.yahoo.com/chinese-hack-us-chamber-commerce-authorities-19352
3718.html

Alliances With Other Nations No Longer A Gray Area

People have heard the expression "being in the gray area". Do we know
what this means anymore when it comes to our alliances with other
nations?

George Washington would turn over in his grave if he were to see the
nations we call allies these days. He warned against having a long term
alliance and funding outside nations, and he warned about the potential
corruption in our nation caused by such alliances. Today we send more
money to those who should be considered enemies then we do those who
treat us like an ally should.

Afghanistan wants more money from us when it comes to helping them
rebuild their nation, and our Commander and Chief wants to provide these
funds... What is the point? When President Karzai and the government
with him thinks setting a woman free from ten years of prison, where she
was placed for being a victim of rape, just so that they could force her
to marry the relative who raped her; where is the justice in this? What
is the point to sending billions of dollars worth of support for
Afghanistan when we can't do more to help the poor women and children in
their nation. We look past this nation's corruption and act as if we
believe our weapons and money can fix their nation... Are our leaders'
complete fools? If we allow this twisted sense of justice in their
nation; this corruption, then there is no amount of money that can help
them. We need to cease the funding towards such corrupt nations, for
this is not being in the gray area, this is being in the shadow; for we
are inhibiting their progress by allowing their injustice, and then
paying them while doing this. We should use this money to help our own
nation instead, where we have more of a hope in taking care of our women
and children.

Allowing freedom of religion in our nation is a grand gift bestowed to
us. But when we fail to recognize the difference between a dangerous
ideology and a religion we hurt our people and our nation. Just like we
wouldn't allow a Christian cult where children are married to adults, or
allow Pastors' to have several wives who are under age, neither should
we allow an Islamic ideology that teaches true Islam is one where one
condones the killing of an Infidel; any non-believer. Yet as crazy as it
may sound one of the fasted spreading ideologies of Islam in our nation
is one inspired by the book titled "Milestones". This book was the
number one inspiration for the leaders of the Taliban, Al Qaida, and the
Haqani Network... And we have the audacity to wonder where our recent
homegrown terrorists came from.

When did we start believing that providing support or freedom to those
who wish the American people harm is being in the gray area? This is
wrong, period. How is this misunderstood?

Being tolerable of one's rights, does not mean we should ignore the
obvious threats. In Afghanistan they will arrest a woman for being
raped, and she may even be killed before this can happen. Supporting a
government who allows this, and calls this justice is just as bad as
allowing the same injustice in our own nation.

Doing the right thing is usually not easy, and people may suffer, but
this doesn't mean we have a right to look the other way when the wrong
thing is happening... This makes us cowards and no better than the
perpetrators of the crime we choose to ignore. Contrarily after the
crime has taken place right in front of us our leaders shake the
perpetrators hand and then give them money and support.

We are no longer justified when it comes to our alliances with those who
contradict and despise our nation's liberty. We are no longer in a gray
area, but instead we've become an accomplice to their injustices.

http://www.articlesbase.com/politics-articles/alliances-with-other-natio
ns-no-longer-a-gray-area-5455403.html

With Friends like Pakistan Who Needs Enemies

We are there "friends' because of the money involved and the fact they
have nuclear weapons which can possibly be used by the Taliban if the
corrupt Pakistan Government is influenced by their neighbors... If we
had heeded the warnings from our forefathers we would have never gotten
ourselves into this mess.

Protesters at Sunday's rally shouted, "A friend of the USA and India is
a traitor."

ISLAMABAD (AP) - More than 30,000 Islamists rallied against the U.S. in
the Pakistani city of Lahore on Sunday, demanding Islamabad cut off ties
with Washington following NATO airstrikes last month that killed 24
Pakistani soldiers.

The protest highlighted the ability of hard-liners to bring their
supporters into the streets, as well as the lasting anger over the Nov.
26 attack, which has complicated U.S. efforts to enlist Pakistan's
cooperation on the Afghan war...

http://news.yahoo.com/pakistan-30-000-islamists-protest-against-us-17282
0243.html

(Please read the article on this blog titled "Alliances With Other
Nations No Longer A Gray Area.")

George Washington urged the American people to preserve the national
credit by avoiding war, avoiding unnecessary borrowing, and paying off
any national debt accumulated in times of war as quickly as possible in
times of peace so that future generations do not have to take on the
financial burdens that others have taken on themselves. Despite his
warnings to avoid taking on debt, Washington does state his belief that
sometimes it is necessary to spend money to prevent dangers or wars that
will in the end cost more if not properly prepared for.

George Washington warned the American people to avoid long-term friendly
relations or rivalries with any nation...

He argues these attachments and animosity toward nations will only cloud
the government's judgment in its foreign policy. Washington argues that
longstanding poor relations will only lead to unnecessary wars due to a
tendency to blow minor offenses out of proportion when committed by
nations viewed as enemies of the United States. He continues this
argument by claiming that alliances are likely to draw the United States
into wars which have no justification and no benefit to the country
beyond simply defending the favored nation.

Washington continues his warning on alliances by claiming that they
often lead to poor relations with nations who feel that they are not
being treated as well as America's allies, and threaten to influence the
American government into making decisions based upon the will of their
allies instead of the will of the American people.
(http://www.history.com/topics/george-washington)

"Washington argues that the American Government needs to ensure that
"the diffusion of knowledge" throughout the United States is a primary
goal, since the government has been created to enforce the opinion of
the people and as a result the opinion of the people should be informed
and knowledgeable." This is why these posts are being shared by those of
us at Moore Enterprises.

"Shut Down The Federal Reserve!!"

"If we do not educate the American people about how deathly ill the U.S.
economy has become, then they will just keep falling for the same old
lies that our politicians keep telling them. Just 'tweaking' things here
and there is not going to fix this economy..."

. . . the heart of our economic problems is the Federal Reserve. The
Federal Reserve is a perpetual debt machine, it has almost completely
destroyed the value of the U.S. dollar and it has an absolutely
nightmarish track record of incompetence. If the Federal Reserve system
had never been created, the U.S. economy would be in far better shape.
The federal government needs to shut down the Federal Reserve and start
issuing currency that is not debt-based

(Please read the article at the following link; this is very valuable
information for us to consider if we have any chance of providing a
better future for our children.)

http://news.yahoo.com/50-facts-u-economy-shock-205804459.html

Why Our Leaders' Fail Us and Rome Is Falling

George Washington's view on Foreign Policy:

"Steering clear of permanent alliances with any portion of the foreign

world" and advocating trade with all nations." He strictly warns against

"permanent alliances with any portion of the foreign world." You think
our finding Father was onto something? Go ahead and give him a thumbs down if you "know better".

When asked if the WikiLeaks of 2010 would damage American relations with other countries, Secretary of Defense Robert Gates noted that "governments deal with the United States because it's in their interest, not because they like us, not because they trust us, and not because they believe we can keep secrets."

"I have known doctors, lawyers, Generals', police detectives,
politicians, and others with the most esteemed jobs'; those who are
required to be responsible for other peoples' lives. What many of them
have in common is they didn't become what they are because they
truly care about people but because they wanted to prove something to
themselves and gain a sense of self accomplishment. You'd be afraid how
many of them only think about themselves, and since they are at the top

they make incompetent decisions. They have a very simplistic mindset much of the time. They're   counterproductive. They fail to recognize that once they've gained the position they so sought

after they shouldn't be allowed to fail in such an extreme and selfish way. They should be held accountable. Many of them are failures regardless of their PHDs' or their rank! Upon reaching their esteemed position if they fail humanity once they get there then they have failed entirely and they're too blind to see this. We're in the mess we're in not because of some grand conspiracy but simply

because of people having the wrong mindset and being self centered and incompetent, just like many senators and emperors' in Rome had been at

times. Everyone kisses these "esteemed" peoples' asses and these people

have few if any valuable advisors to help them make wise decisions.

Their advisors just tell them what they want to hear instead of what

they need to hear... As long as "they"; the so called elite and their

family is well off, they don't really care too much about everyone else;

so they should not even be in the job they have taken on. The people we

think know better, they don't. The people suffer because of this...

There are so many pretenders and not enough courageous leaders. "

Consul Nicholas Moore

Sad Truth

(Please read the article in the link at the bottom)

The fall of our our nation as a super power seems to be concluding like the film "The Godfather". Our compiled enemies are hitting us in all the right places, and where it hurts the most, seeing our vulnerabilities at this time. Meanwhile congress fails to fix our debt crises... The most depressing part is those in our nation are too distracted with their own
little corner of life that they don't realize what is happening... as our empire is burning down around them.

They admit such things to us now, (just like Admiral Mullen admited some of our millions in government money going to Pakistan was funding terrorists,) because they figure if they don't share all these facts
with us now someone like Wikileaks will (as they have before), then our
government will look that much worse for keeping such Top Secret
information from us... Our leaders are acting the way that they are now
because on many levels from the highest of them to the lowest are
admitting defeat...

Sad times...
http://gma.yahoo.com/exclusive-cia-spies-caught-fear-execution-middle-ea
st-233819159.html

Threat For Major Computer Virus In Our Increasing

Speaking outside a global conference on Internet security in London,
Eugene Kaspersky, a Russian math genius, told Sky News the threat was a
real and present danger.

"I don't want to speak about it. I don't even want to think about it," he said. "But we are close, very close, to cyber terrorism. Perhaps already the criminals have sold their skills to the terrorists -- and then ... oh, God."

http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2011/11/01/expert-at-london-internet-secu
rity-conference-warns-cyber-war/

Government Must Remain "Of The People, By The People And For Them

These historic times call for extraordinary measures to ensure our
government remains "of the people, by the people and for the people,"
not just powerful interests with the deepest pockets.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tom-udall/citizens-united_b_1086618.html

Duqu: Weaponized Virus

It's a new age, and a new way to fight.

Duqu is the second major weaponized virus to turn computers into lethal  weapons with devastating destructive power.

The new program, discovered by Symantec in mid-October with the help of an unnamed research lab, uses much of the same code as the 2010 Stuxnet virus did. But instead of destroying the systems it infects, Duqu secretly penetrates them and, according to some experts, creates "back door" vulnerabilities that can be exploited to destroy the networks at any time its creators may choose.

Its success set back the Iranian nuclear program for years.

http://www.foxnews.com/scitech/2011/11/14/iran-admits-nuclear-sites-hit-by-duqu-cyberweapon/

China and Russia: Perpetrators of Economic Espionage

That's the warning from a new U.S. national intelligence director's
report to Congress released Thursday that states China and Russia are
the biggest perpetrators of economic espionage through the Internet.

Analysts note that this is the first time the U.S. government report has
so openly blamed countries that support cyber attacks and espionage at
the national and state level.

But we're still cool with them... That's politics as we continue our affair.

Read more:
http://www.foxnews.com/politics/2011/11/03/us-calls-out-china-and-russia-for-cyber-espionage-costing-billions/#ixzz1dq5aNULW

Update:  http://news.yahoo.com/york-times-says-targeted-china-hackers-wen-report-040732303--finance.html

"For the last four months, Chinese hackers have persistently attacked The New York Times, infiltrating its computer systems and getting passwords for its reporters and other employees," The Times said on Thursday.

"Security experts hired by The Times to detect and block the computer attacks gathered digital evidence that Chinese hackers, using methods that some consultants have associated with the Chinese military in the past, breached The Times's network."

Pentagon Engaging In Offensive Cyber Operations

Omaha: The head of both NSA and Cyber Command called today for more
authorities to protect and defend America's cyber networks, presumably
an indication the Pentagon feels the need for the right to engage in
offensive cyber operations.

 

http://defense.aol.com/2011/11/15/cyber-command-presses-for-more-cyberwa
r-authority/?icid=maing-grid7%7Cmain5%7Cdl9%7Csec1_lnk2%7C112841

Major Cyber Attack In America Will Be A Self Fufilled Prophesy

Our openness to our nation and the world over how vulnerable we are to such an attack is the same as a warrior in the heat of battle telling their opponent how to defeat them... Sadly because certain hackers have revealed our Governments' secrets before, not our leaders seem to be sharing so much more with the public, regardless of the danger this puts us in.

I believe they were testing out the waters, nonchalantly" Please read the article in the following link.

http://news.yahoo.com/us-satellites-compromised-malicious-cyber-activity
-011210503.html

http://www.timesweaver.com/top-7-worst-cyber-attacks-in-history/

Update: http://news.yahoo.com/york-times-says-targeted-china-hackers-wen-report-040732303--finance.html

"For the last four months, Chinese hackers have persistently attacked The New York Times, infiltrating its computer systems and getting passwords for its reporters and other employees," The Times said on Thursday.

"Security experts hired by The Times to detect and block the computer attacks gathered digital evidence that Chinese hackers, using methods that some consultants have associated with the Chinese military in the past, breached The Times's network."

Americans Unknowingly Fund Jihad (What Are Our Soldiers' Fighting For Anymore?)

This is something that must stop, yet our government figures you won't mind the small print, because our economy needs the money... At what cost? Is all I'll ask.

Please read the information provided here, and in the links at the bottom.

"Companies that practice SCF, including AIG, retain advisory boards of
sharia experts. These boards, which often include Islamist ideologues,
tell the companies which investments are permissible (halal) and which
are not (haram). AIG's "Shariah Supervisory Committee" includes a
Pakistani named Imran Ashraf Usmani, who is the son and student of Taqi
Usmani, a top cleric (a "mufti") and a globally renowned sharia-finance               
uthority. The mufti is author of a book that features a chapter urging
Muslims in the West to engage in jihad against the countries in which
they live."

http://www.nationalreview.com/articles/243717/american-taxpayer-financia
l-jihadist-andrew-c-mccarthy

http://www.shariahfinancewatch.org/blog/2011/10/17/correcting-the-new-mi
sinformation-on-islamic-charities-funding-jihadist-terrorism/

NYPD keeps files on Muslims who change their names (They don't quite get it).

By ADAM GOLDMAN and MATT APUZZO - Associated Press Yahoo News

The goal was to find a way to spot terrorists like Daood Gilani and Carlos Bledsoe before they attacked.

Gilani, a Chicago man, changed his name to the unremarkable David Coleman Headley to avoid suspicion as he helped plan the 2008 terrorist shooting spree in Mumbai, India. Bledsoe, of Tennessee, changed his name to Abdulhakim Mujahid Muhammad in 2007 and, two years later, killed one soldier and wounded another in a shooting at a recruiting station in Little Rock, Ark.

                                                                                                          

Sometime around 2008, state court officials began sending the NYPD information about new name changes, said Ron Younkins, the court's chief of operations. The court regularly sends updates to police, he said. The information is all public, and he said the court was not aware of how police used it.

Taking an Arabic name might be a sign that someone is more religious, Brown said, but it doesn't necessarily suggest someone is more radical. He said law enforcement nationwide has often confused the two points in the fight against terrorism.

Now For Consul Moore's opinion:

What needs to be researched during the interviews is the kind of ideology the people believe in. This will simplify things. If you understand a person’s ideology then this makes the discovery of a threat easier to recognize. It’s literally as simple as the following analogy: If you interview someone (let’s say somebody directly from Germany) and you discover that the book which inspires this Germans’ belief system is “Mein Kamph” written by Adolf Hitler, well then you have a pretty clear sign that this individual could potentially be a Nazi, or they hold strongly to the ideals presented in this book.” If during the interview process you discover a Middle Eastern individual whom bases their belief system off of the book “Milestones” written by Sayyid Qutb, well then this is the same as the analogy just mentioned about the German; you have a pretty clear sign that you need to keep an eye on this person.

                                                        

It’s not discrimination to recognise a dangerous ideology and to be against it. Would you be considered someone prejudice if you didn’t want to befriend a Nazi? No, you would just be seen as someone smart enough to know that the ideals a Nazi does not correspond well with your own, for you're not a supporter of hate and violence; no one would judge you. So in knowing this to be true, how come people can’t differentiate between Islam and an ideology derived from Islam? Someone Muslim should not be perceived as dangerous, anymore than someone German should be perceived as a Nazi today. However if the individual (regardless of their culture or race) follows an ideology which inspires violence and discrimination you should not think yourself intolerable, or prejudice for recognizing the danger and being unsupporting of the ideology.

                                                                                                                                   

If what is being said here does not make sense, please help me to better understand.

Please read my article "Origin of Our Threat and the Danger of Their Ideology" presenting all the evidence and facts for my arguments, verified by former CIA. The link to this article is provided below.

Thank you

http://www.authorsden.com/categories/article_top.asp?catid=58&id=63926

http://news.yahoo.com/nypd-keeps-files-muslims-change-names-185910883.html

The Recent Revolutions in the Middle East Come To Mind...

“Historians believe that secret societies have had a role in revolutions, but all that is yet to be worked out," Knight said. "And a big part of the reason is because so many documents are enciphered."

No direct evidence could be found as of now, nor seemingly obvious truths hidden right under our noses, but please read the information provided in the following links to learn a little more about the facts on Secret Societies.                  http://www.conspiracyarchive.com/NWO/Secret_Societies.htm

Liz Goodwin Yahoo News

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/california-researchers-crack-secret-society-cipher-142752408.html

                                       

Legatum: The Origins of Nicholas Moore (Preview of Two Chapters)

About the Book

http://legatumbook.com/Home_Page.html

Excruciating pain is something that Nicholas must endure daily while resisting his desires through constant exercise of self-control. The suffering he could cause others would be substantially worse if he were to ever lose his tenacity to resist. His temptations have grown significantly worse after an encounter with a starved and obsessed Succubus named Delilah. Nicholas has now become her most sought after conquest, and she will not cease her intent in capturing his heart and devotion.

Nicholas embarks on a journey ignited by what he feels is the necessity to flee from Delilah's grasp in his fear for the safety of others. He discovers an unusual world during his journey, a world far stranger than he could ever imagine, a world where the questions, the answers to which he's always longed for, start to unveil more than just who and what he really is.

Nicholas is no longer a day-dreaming child full of delusions, but he is a man embarking on his own Odyssey and ready to discover his purpose. He hasn't just been simply running away as far as he can from Delilah; the truth is far more complicated. He sees the opportunity to get to what he has believed to be the source of all his suffering, the place where the story of what he was began: The Cradle of Life.

You are invited to take a journey into this literary world that will steadily become clearer to you the deeper you dive, and if you pay attention, you'll discover answers to some of the philosophical questions we have in our own world today.

CHAPTER 1

Journal Entry 104

Every person has a weakness, even if at times it is also their strength... story of my life.

My deep depressing thoughts for the day:

“Because of my name, son,” my drunken father yelled. “Because of my name, I lost everything! This is what your grandfather told me. And, for our name’s sake, son, is why I must leave you now. I hope someday you understand…”

It was my last day of high school, and I was surprised over the invading memory of my dad (when he was trying and failing to explain to me why he had to leave). I was surprised over this sudden thought because there was someone else before me who seemed far more interesting.

I should not have looked into her wide dark eyes, even for a fleeting moment of curiosity.

She smiled, she could not help herself, and I didn’t expect that she understood what was happening to her. What she knew was that something about me made her curious, something about me lured her in, and she didn’t question how this could be wrong. I should have stopped myself, I knew better, but I wanted to see her up close. I wanted to see what exactly it was that made her so alluring to me.

She rose up from her table, where her new acquaintances giggled and bestowed ephemeral glances in my direction. I expected that they found me odd, which is at least what I was hoping for. I really should not have looked in her eyes, I was sure she had already been told how unsociable I am.

This new girl in school, I spotted her earlier from under the hood of my black sweatshirt in English class, but I did not allow her to notice me then. I have a habit of remaining inconspicuous, not because I’m particularly shy, or because I want to give off a seditious or mysterious vibe; I strive to be unobtrusive for the welfare of those around me. There was something different about her though, yet also familiar, and I chose not to resist, looking at her longer than I should have.

I was leaning back comfortably in my seat, in the same corner I always sat at during our lunch break. When I saw that she was heading my way I leant forward and slouched over my plate picking up my warm pizza pocket and taking a bite, trying to act oblivious to her advance. No one ever bothers me, and no one ever comes near me, if I can help it. This day was different, though; she was different, and the guilt of what I was intentionally doing was already eating me up inside.

I should stop this, and I will, I told myself, but I wanted to see her up close, just a look, and then I would react in a rude manner, and walk out of there, never to give her notice again.

I smelt her even before she was at my table; she was like I could be, but I expected unintentionally. Her scent was of a woman ready to breed, a potent dose of her pheromones, but I was sure she didn’t realise this. I’m the only one I know of who has these senses so vigilant.

When she paused in front of my table I slowly placed my food back on my tray. I stared down at the table for a moment and I could not help myself from inhaling deeply, closing my eyes as I indulged in her aroma. I knew that I was beginning to release my own scent then, and, if I did not leave the scene soon, the many people whom I had been avoiding for the past few years would take sudden notice of me. The temptation and suffering of resistance was already enough of a burden for me, and I did not want to draw anyone else in, I just wanted to see this new girl up close, to let my guard down just this once.

I was hesitant to look up at her, and I expected that she was feeling rather awkward and confused right about then.

I get so tired of pretending to be something I’m not, so tired of resisting, enduring and never really living.

Before I did what I always do, and hastily leave, I leant back again in my seat and pulled my hood off my head, then I looked up at her lovely face and smiled politely.

Her eyes were dark brown, almost black, and almond shaped, in framed with thick dark eyelashes, and her lips were supple and naturally blood-red. Her skin was pale white, but not sickly in appearance, and when I looked back into her consuming eyes I was surprised at what I saw…sarcasm.

I frowned uncomfortably, for she seemed to not be in the least bit impressed by me, yet her scent intensified, being far more persuasive.

“Why are you hiding over here?” she asked with a curious scowl, causing her dark eyebrows to form a ‘v’, yet, with a smile of amusement, flashing her perfect whites. “I can’t believe it…” She said this in hardly more than a whisper, just a spoken thought.

I pulled my hood back over my head and pushed myself away from the table with my feet. Without looking at her again I quickly walked out of the cafeteria with my hands deep in my pockets. I felt her eyes on me as I left and I heard her giggling. Her friends joined in with her, and for that I was gratified. But, as I walked out, the thought crossed my mind, am I losing whatever I once had? Could I possibly be normal, or is this girl just a special case?

I stopped midway across the large courtyard, suddenly feeling quite concerned as I smelt those raging pheromones again. I slowly turned back around and there she was…walking towards me. A breeze blew her dark hair back, and, as I watched the red leaves blow around in a small funnel in front of her, and saw the young men sitting on the benches to the right of her stand up staring as if ‘Helen of Troy’ was passing by, I suddenly realised what was wrong, She is like me, except she doesn’t hold back.

No… She is nothing like me! I heard my thoughts so clearly, and, as I watched her approach, I felt something I had never felt before. I was rather excited by the awareness; she was pulling me in, she was making me want her. I would have no choice but to play the game back, with no holds barred. This was an arrogant and foolish thought I had.

I pulled my hood off my head and quickly unzipped my sweatshirt, then hung it over my right arm. I stood there watching her with a serious scowl on my face as she slowed down her pace, smiling at me the whole time as she drew near. I saw her look down at my chest that was exposed through my tight white tee, and she raised an eyebrow with an impressed air to her demeanour. I did not look away from her face, and I showed no change in my solemn conduct.

She did not stop sooner than I expected she would, but instead walked right into my personal bubble and stood so close to me that I could feel her breath on my neck. I tried to look down into her stunning eyes again, but she was looking at my lips and licking her own so seductively that I had to fight hard in resisting the urge to wrap my arms around her and taste that appetising mouth.

“Why are you playing with me? I know what you are.”

“Why were you hiding?” she asked me while stretching her swan-like neck and rising on her tiptoes, trying to draw closer to my lips.

“I don’t want to take advantage of anyone,” I said as I hesitatingly brought my right hand up, grazing the back of my fingers against her soft cheek. “I don’t want to drain anyone.”

She turned her head and kissed my knuckles gently before responding. I closed my eyes as I felt those juicy lips touch my flesh.

“You lost control before, hmmm…? You hurt someone?”

“Yes…” I replied, sighing. “One time was enough for me; I am not so selfish as to ever let it happen again.”

I moved my hand from her cheek and was running my fingers through her soft dark hair as she began rubbing her lips against my neck. She grabbed hold of my left hand and I felt her passion as her fingers slipped between mine. As she spoke against my neck I smelt her arousal increasing all the more, along with my own.

“I have never met someone like you before…” she said in a lustful whisper that caused me to think ‘oh, God’ as goose bumps raised on my neck and arms.

“This is new for me, too,” I said. “But I don’t want to risk your safety, or mine.”

“I can sense how lonely you are, handsome, and I think we should take the risk.”

She started kissing my neck so tenderly, then touching my flesh with the tip of her wet tongue. I saw an image flash through my mind of the kind of encounter we would have, being so sublime, so mystical. I almost gave in, and was on the brink of falling into the abyss that she was pulling me into, but I resisted still with what little will I had left.

I looked away from her nuzzling me and took notice of the students who were forming a circle around us, staring at us like zombies. Something was wrong; I saw this in particular when my eyes stopped on the face of a girl with dyed blonde hair. She was blinking her eyes sleepily and was wobbling in place, appearing as if she was about to fall over. Her face was flushed and I recognised her symptoms, then the aroma from this young girl mingled with the pheromones of the other students around her. They were all feeling the effect of the intimacy this Muse and I were sharing. We were not draining each other, but those in close proximity to us, drawing them in and empowering ourselves with their energy. The power I felt in those moments was greater than before. Regardless of how addictive this had potential for being, regardless of how fulfilling, I could not let it happen again!

This new student, this succubus brought her hand up through my hair and pulled my head down. My lips were inches from hers and she was drawing me in, feeling the same thing I was, and indulging in it.

“No…” I gasped. “Stop it!”

I don’t know how I found the strength, but I pushed her away. I held her at a distance in front of me as I tried to shake the drunken feeling out of my head.

“Stay back!” I said with more vigour, as my hands grasped her shoulders, keeping her from coming close to me again. “You know what we are doing, don’t you?”

Her sexy sleepy eyes became more alert, and angry.

“Yes!” she said between her teeth.

“Why would you do that?”

My heart was pounding, and the blood flowing through my veins felt like it was boiling. “Why do I hurt?” I asked this, but, when I heard the words leave my lips, I sounded like I was begging.

She pushed my left hand off her shoulder, and then grabbed my shirt, pulling my head down towards hers and pressing her lips against mine. I dropped my black sweatshirt at our feet and returned the kiss, pulling her in close and pressing her supple breasts against my broad chest almost lifting her off the ground. Our kiss became more fervent then, and I was on the brink of tearing her shirt off as I felt more invigorated than I ever had before. The pain that I felt only moments ago when I had pushed her away was gone. Our senses were keen, and every touch, every breath was illustrious. I needed her, more than anything, and there was only joy when she was in my arms. Nothing was sweeter than the nectar of her saliva, and nothing ever felt more pleasant before the glossy touch of her hands on my face, and her cheek against my hand was softer than velvet. Her scent was making me higher with every cool and refreshing breath, numbing my mind to everything else around me, making everything else seem meaningless in comparison to her. There was only her and I lost in our personal paradise.

I glanced back at the young blonde for one freakish and unexpected moment, before I couldn’t care anymore. Her legs grew weak as she stared at us with lust in her eyes, then she fell forward, and the seconds passed like minutes as I watched her lose consciousness and fall gracefully.

The domino effect happened then, and a young Goth teenager also fell prostrate onto the concrete beside the blonde. His dyed black hair looked like a dark puddle on the ground mingled with the blonde hair of the young girl to the right of him. Others were about to fall also and by a miracle I found even more resolve to pull away from the beauty again.

I pushed her away more forcefully this time, and growled loudly over the pain of losing our connection. My stomach burnt, like my guts were being tied into knots, and my whole body was shaking as if I had a fever that was breaking. Sweat covered my face, and my t-shirt was damp against my chest. I looked at her and saw how aroused she was through her red tank top, and that she too was suddenly sweating and was in pain.

“What is wrong with you?” she yelled in a hateful tone.

I turned away and ran before she could draw me in again. I did not look back, but just ran as fast as I could through the school parking lot, then into an apartment complex. I feared that she would be chasing after me, so close on my tail, and I did not believe that I could resist her again.

I ran till I was standing in a baseball diamond, across the street from my house. I fell to my knees, then, gasping for air, took my t-shirt off, trying to breathe and cool my burning body.

I yelled loudly and punched the ground as hard as I could, which caused a cloud of dust to surround me. My soul felt torn, and my heart felt broken, as if I lost someone dear to me. I felt like throwing up, but I fought the gagging sensation and tried to centre myself. I tried to focus on my breathing to slow the beating of my heart, which was trying to break through my chest. My heartbeat took a while to slow down, as if my heart needed the goddess, or the demon I encountered. My selfish and angry heart was trying to threaten me, saying it could not continue pumping blood through my body properly without her, my love, my other half. I resisted shouting out again in pain, and remembered the faces of the teenagers who surrounded the new girl and me when we were in our intimate embrace.

“I left in time…” I said this to reassure myself. “No one was permanently damaged; I would have felt it. I did the right thing. I don’t need her… I don’t need anyone!” I shouted this last part up to the sky, being angry at God for ever bringing me into this world.

The skies yelled back at me in a thunderous roar before the clouds began to cry cool drops of water onto my burning body.

I should not have looked into her wide, innocent, dark eyes, even for a fleeting moment of curiosity. I can’t forget who I am, and I am cursed to be alone, for I cannot take the risk of hurting those around me.

*    *    *

Journal Entry 105

I woke up around midnight, and then once again around three in the morning; both times I was covered in viscous sweat and with my blankets wrapped tightly around me like a cocoon.

Her scent lingered in my room both times I awoke, and the second time I opened my eyes I could not move my body. I was frozen in place as if some kind of invisible force was sitting on my chest keeping me immobile. I realised then why my sleep was so restless, and the fear engulfed me, fear for my grandmother who slept in the room across the hall. I tried so hard to move my lips, to lift my body, but I could barely shiver. She had me paralysed and, even though I could not see her, I knew she was there taunting me, feeling dangerously scorned.

I tried to move my lips again so that I could threaten her, or maybe reason with her, but my frozen lips would barely move and my room was too dark for me to see the figure who sat on my chest.

I felt her breath on my neck, and then heard her imposing whisper molesting my ear, saying, “I hate you…” She kissed my cheek tenderly. “But I love you…”

She then nibbled on my lobe and progressed to licking down my jaw line with the tip of her warm tongue, stopping to engulf my lips with hers.

There was no more fear, I gave in, and there was nothing that I could do. This woman had the power to paralyse my whole body when I slept, capturing me in this state between slumber and alertness. It seemed hopeless to fight her, as I felt her under my blankets with her warm thighs rubbing the sides of my hips, holding me tightly in place. She was reaching back to feel and release my arousal, and whatever guilt I had expected to feel was gone. I couldn’t help but wonder who would die around us, for surely my grandmother was going to.

My light switch came on and I heard a familiar high-pitched shriek.

“Get the hell out of this house, you Jezebel!”

I was able to see the beauty above me, and suddenly and unexpectedly I felt the invisible ties that bound me were loosened. Her expression changed to being as close to ugly as such an angelic face could ever get. She stared at my grandmother with abnormally widened eyes of rage, and her lips formed a large sadistic smile like the Cheshire cat, as she exposed her white teeth. For a moment, I even thought that she hissed at my grandmother, but, before I had another moment to analyse the embarrassing predicament I was in, I used the control I gained back to grab her, so as to force her to the ground and contain her. I wasn’t really expecting that to turn out too well. She slipped out of my grasp anyway and, with burning red cheeks, she looked back at us before jumping out my open window onto the soft grass below.

“Too bad we are not in a two-storey house,” my grandmother said, sighing.

I looked at her and was concerned over how pale she was. The sight of her standing there shivering in my doorway, leaning against the doorframe and holding my grandfather’s old nine mil by her side, was unpleasant, to say the least.

“I can explain this, Grandma,” I said, rising out of my bed, holding my blanket around my waist.

“Back away, Nicky,” she said to me in a shaken tone.

I was heading in her direction wanting to tenderly place my arms around her so as to comfort her, but I knew she would not let me, so I stood there feeling so powerless, yet thankful for her being there.

“Let’s go in the living room, and I’ll make some hot cocoa while you tell me what the heck is going on.”

“Okay Grandma,” I replied with a sigh.

When she was in the kitchen heating up the pot, I quickly pulled on my sweat pants and put on a white t-shirt. I sat on the couch watching her in the kitchen, worried over how much I may have drained her before she barged into my room and scared the woman I love away.

“She’s the new girl in school, Grandma. I never thought I would meet someone else like me; I thought I was alone.”

I cleared my throat as my grandmother began pouring the warm water in a mug for me.

“I always feared you would,” she said as she stirred my cocoa.

“She drew me in, and I was almost helpless to resist her, but I did. I ran, Grandma, just like Joseph in the Bible ran from his master’s wife. I was in so much pain, like I had never felt before, but I knew I did the right thing.”

Grandma brought me my hot cocoa, and then sat across from me sipping from her own mug and watching me intently as I continued describing this strange girl to her.

“It was different when she and I were close. I did not drain her, and she did not drain me, but instead we were draining everyone close to us. And everyone seemed drawn to us, as if under hypnosis. This is why I ran, because it would have been so much worse than before.”

“Hmmm,” Grandma replied, “That’s interesting…”

I saw the understanding in her eyes, telling me that she had awoke feeling drained before coming to my room earlier.

“I don’t understand why she came here tonight. I think she’s angry with me, and I know that she is dangerous, more so than I am to everyone around me.”

I sipped my cocoa, feeling frustrated and angry. With who was I angry, I was not sure. Myself, life, the crazy woman I loved, maybe God, or all of the above.

“I love you, Nicky,” my grandmother said in a most comforting tone. I was soothed. My grandmother added, “But you know that you must leave me now. You must go far from here.”

I felt a stab of pain in my soul at what I was hearing then, for, from her tone, I knew that this really was goodbye. I looked in her eyes and saw them red and full of tears. The only family I had left was letting me go, the only family member who both loved and understood me throughout my early life was telling me that I would never see her again.

“I understand, Grandma,” I said, trying to sound strong. “I believe this girl was drawn here because of me, and I have to draw her away from this place. I have to go seek answers elsewhere now, right?”

“I told you my Nicky that some day you would have to go out and discover who you are. And yes, that time is now. I’ve always told you that you are a better man than your father. I know that you will not make the same mistakes he did, Nicky. And he didn’t want you to go down his path, anyway, which is why he left you in my care. You won’t manipulate and hurt people like he did, but instead you will someday help people and influence them. Your sufferings, my boy, will someday inspire multitudes, like Jesus’ suffering did.”

I continued sipping my cocoa and my grandma smiled at me with pride in her eyes. She always believed in me, and always saw such potential in me, even when all I saw of myself was an abomination. She took me in even after I drained her daughter; my love for my mother put her into a coma. My father, even though he didn’t hate me, didn’t know how to handle me, or the trouble I brought into his life, so he left never to be seen again… leaving his home, his family, friends; my father just vanished. After taking me from my mother’s bedside, he brought me to my grandma’s house, and then tried to tell me that this was best for me and my mother. He left to start another life, a better life, which didn’t involve me. My grandmother was quickly there for me though, to support me and raise me. She adopted me and loved me indiscriminately, perhaps I’ll never understand why.

When I stood up to go pack my bags my grandmother stood up also, and to my surprise she stepped towards me, then slowly and cautiously embraced me, letting her tears flow onto my shoulder. I stood rigid in her embrace, afraid to feel too much, afraid to hug her back.

“I know you will do well, my Nicky…” she said weakly. “I know that someday you will truly be happy, accepted, and loved by many.”

“Thank you, Grandma…”

She went to her room after embracing me, stumbled a couple of times as she walked down the hall without uttering another word to me. I rushed to my room and began hastily packing my black suitcase and school backpack with my essentials. I wondered if years later I would regret not showing up to my high school graduation, but I quickly pushed this thought aside. I wasn’t sure where I was going to go, but I knew that I had to leave that night, and I expected that the demented woman I loved would follow.

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The night after my encounter with the new girl was one of restless sleep with dreams that were so morbidly strange, but also so exceptionally erotic.

Nicholas Moore